kythryne's latest entry has really resonated with me. like her, i've always been strongly against the fitness-industrial complex. it breaks my heart to hear a woman i work with constantly talking about how she wants to lose weight and the crazy diets she tries to accomplish such a goal. i usually keep my mouth shut about this because i've always been thin, skinny even, dangerously so at points, but it's always been natural. i've never had any sort of plan to my eating, generally i eat when i'm hungry to the point of feeling ill, in which case i eat whatever is fastest. i usually keep my mouth shut about this because people generally don't want to hear a tiny girl talking about the dangers of dieting.

however, i'm realizing that my system of eating is bad for me. i'm realizing that i need to eat things that make me feel good, and a steady diet of crap fast food and a piece of bread here and there to try to tide me over is bad. i've spent the past three days in extraordinary pain from a migraine, triggered by my eating pattern. i took some steps toward changing this tonight by going grocery shopping and picking up some protein bars and apples for the tiding over and soup and pasta to encourage me to do some easy, fast cooking. i know that i've been mistreating my body. the vise grip on my head that lasted three days has told me that. i *can* control this pain. there are ways for me to ensure that i will not be rendered useless for days at a time. i am capable of this and i will continue to do everything i can to keep my body in working order.